Saturday, March 19, 2011

Of Lion King!!!

When i was young, I really loved Walt Disney cartoons, especially Lion King and Aladdin. This hasn't changed. Till this day, i still love both these cartoons way above all others. I remember having a Lion King T-shirt when i was a child and it was one of my favourite t-shirts. everytime it was clean, i just had to wear it. It had a picture of Simba and Nala i think. My favourite character back then used to be Nala (now i prefer the hyenas...they're just super amusing!)

We outgrow clothes and toys but sometimes there are just some things you'll never outgrow. For me it is these two cartoons. When I am down or stressed and need some cheer, i just play these cartoons and for the period of time that it is playing, I return to the state of a child, where worry and tension are two unknown matters and my only concern is the 'happily ever after' that comes in the end of the cartoon. Sometimes, it takes innocent cartoons like this to remind us that when life gets so hard and unbearable, it is just temporary and that in the end, something good will come out of it as long as we ourselves are the good ones and not the bad ones.

One of muslims' greatest liability-the mouth

Prophet Muhammad (pbuh) said :”Do you know what backbiting is?” They said, “God and His Messenger know best.” He then said, “It is to say something about your brother that he would dislike.” Someone asked him, “But what if what I say is true?” The Messenger of God said, “If what you say about him is true, you are backbiting him, but if it is not true then you have slandered him.” (Muslim)

"O you who believe! Avoid much suspicion, for some suspicions are a sin. Do not spy on one another, nor backbite one another. Would one of you love to eat the flesh of his dead brother? Nay, you would abhor it, [so similarly, avoid backbiting]. And fear Allah. Indeed, Allah is Most Forgiving, Most Merciful." Qur'an, [49:12]

The Prophet (s) once gave counsel to Abu Dharr (r) , saying: “O Abu Dharr! Beware of backbiting, for backbiting is graver than adultery (zina’).” Abu Dharr (r) said: “Why is that so, O Messenger of Allah?” He (s) replied: “That is because when a man commits adultery and then repents to God, God accepts his repentance. However, backbiting is not forgiven until forgiven by its victim.” [Al-Hurr al-`Amili, Wasai'l al-Shi`ah, vol. 8, hadith no. 18312]

I am remarkably surprised by Muslims who pray and fast, and read the Quran but are still unable to refrain themselves from backbiting others and even spreading slander/fitna. What a pity all their prayers (some even have performed their haj/umrah) are still unable to make them strong enough to control their own tongues. Wouldn't it be better for us to utter zikr, or some verses of Quran rather than talking bad about others? Even when we have been wronged by someone, our religion teaches us to be patient and not repeat the persons bad deeds to others, what else if you have not been wronged?

It is not easy to control our words, but as backbiting and spreading slander are considered heavy sins which will be punished both in the dunia as well as akhira', it is wise for us to take this issue seriously and improve for the better.

For a start, before you talk bad about others, reflect your own self. Do you pray 5 times a day? Do you complete your fast during Ramadhan? Does your dressing obey the guidelines of Islam? Does your daily communication obey the limitations provided by Islam, especially when talking to the opposite sex? Are you free from committing sins especially,the heavy sins?

If we ourselves are not perfect, why condemn others? A person who is really good will not simply talk bad about others. Raqib and Atib are by our sides every moment of our lifes. The former jots our good deeds while the latter our sins. There is no escape for anyone and Allah is All-Knowing and also All-Merciful.

Often we take prayers and fasting seriously but forget that our mouths are one of human's greatest liabilty. Lets repent, and do our level best to correct oursleves. It is not easy, I know, I am not perfect either. But I want to change and i hope anyone who have also committed these sins will change too.

From Him we come and to Him we return. We were born in a state which is clean from sins, but what state will we be in when we return to HIm?

Monday, March 7, 2011

When I Wake Up Too Early

I have 2 and a half hours to settle things which i usually need to do in less than half hour. why? because i woke up early...a bit weird really. i've been sitting and staring and my lappy without knowing what to do with my time. i truly lack motivation lately. but well, last night was a good move i guess. today is a good maintenance.

Now the whole good thing about waking up early is that i get to beat the cleanes to use the kitchen and the bathroom. if i wake up late, i'll have to 'rebut' (fight) for this places with them. i wonder why do they come so early.. also, i have to fight for the place with the other residences on this floor. the bathrooms are all occupied as early as 8 am and sometimes even before that. but yeah, that's hostel life.

Though i have not done any reading yestearday and today, at least i've settled some other things. at times, it does get stressful when you have too much to see to in such short time. but waking up early and having so much extra time to do little things helps so mch to lessen my worries...

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

MInd Your Language

So i was and am still terribly down. no matter how high i get during the exam and in the following assignments, i have no hope of scoring a high pointer. even then, there is no guarantee that i will score well for the exam and future assignments, if i'm struggling to comprehend the concepts and theories now, i may face more problems later. God, I'm scared!

Neway, i was way too upset yesterday to do anything or to talk to anyone. The moment i reached my room, i went straight to bed and slept right till 7.30. when i woke up, I still felt horrid. It was hard to work on the assignment as my mind was terribly messed up. the fact that the question is indeed hard did not help either. there i was, sitting in my room...all down and clueless. then, i decided that i needed to cheer up a bit. so i googled comedies. first i watched 'fawlty towers' than i watched a few episodes of 'mind your language'. oh, how i miss that show. 'mind your language' made me laugh so much and this really helped in clearing my muddled mind. i watched for hours. now i know that one of the key to my own success is to be happy and to take things easy. a happy and relaxed me is able to write essays fast and they usually do have a flow of ideas. a messed up and upset me cant do any thinking and i only end up creating a mess in my essay. when i managed to clam myself a bit,i started writing the assignment.before i knew it, i already had 600 words and now i already have 1212.

no, i havent finished yet. i still have a lot to write and since i'll be exceeding the word count, i need to cut down on my words. i hope this assignment will be a real improvement. my,my, my...getting 50+ for 2 assignments in a row...what a slap.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Random thoughts

1. gonna go with the flow

2. havent finished my short story for this week

3.havent started on culture assignment

4.programme in prayer hall on saturday 10-6pm =)

5. had ISOC 1st meeting

6. i really need to stroke a cat

7.managed to get my hands on gogo's burger but that day's one is so much nicer

8. i'm enjoying 'my sister's keeper'

9. i am still able to manage my time well, and i believe so far i have enough time for work, rest and prayers

10. gotta cook something tomoro

11. spent 9.10 pounds on food alone today

12. i realise how some people may take criticism very badly

13. i'm eating too much fast food, chocolates and other unhealthy food

14. i'm disappointed with my sociolinguistics assignment

15. have usrah at 1 pm, but i also have a date with my family on skype at that same time

16. already, my activities are clashing one another

17. i still have that doubt

18. i know why

19. but do i know how to resolve it?

20. parents thought the real life flowers in my room is plastic

21. i vacuumed room yesterday

22. i have a lot of clothes to hand wash

23. i miss someone...

24. i'm scared of the days ahead

25. life moves fast for me.

26. empty

27. truth

36. ...

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

My Call Of Duty

When i first came to Warwick, i was very much impressed with the Malaysian Society's activities. As a highly patriotic person myself, I of course wanted to be a part of all the excitement. I am a part of it through my involvement in the Malaysian NIght. Before this though, i had bigger plans, i wanted to be a part of the MSA committee. I chose MSA but Allah decided ISOC is my place. I lost in the elections of MSA but surprising won the one for ISOC.

All my life, i have never questioned the decisions He makes for me. This is no exception. There are times when i don't get what i want, but in the end (often the ends for me always come sooner than expected) i realise that there are better things in life. This is just one example.

I see my win in the elections as a call of duty. the time has come for me to contribute to Islam. And i willingly and happily except this duty of mine. I am not perfect nor do i have abundant knowledge of Islam. It is my hope that in my journey as the exec of ISOC, i will improve myself while using my leadership skills to help others do the same. also, I hope that my ability to write well and speak convincingly will help in my humble attempts to spread the beauty of Islam.

ISOC, I am ready for you.

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

Improvement+excitement=My Life

What can I say? Life in Warwick is sure exciting, and it gets more and more exciting. Before this, I truly felt that i have wasted so many months in Warwick. Now that I reflect again, I realise that I havent excatly lost that much. yes, I wasted way too much time on fb, and I was hardly focused enough on my studies..but, there are still many gains during those period.

I learnt to cook and i have actually been cooking every now and then.
I've taken an extra course in writing (i just noticed that it helps me have an easy flow in my academic writing)
I still scored a satisfactory grade for my culture portfolios
I have learned to be more patient

there are a few more small achievements but i cant remember them at the moment.

This week and the following week are promised to be really exciting. On this Thursday, I'll be having the election for ISOC (Warwick Islamic Society) in which i have been nominated for the post of vice president. This is the first time i ever wrote a manifesto. I am rather scared of the elections but i promise to do my very best.

And for the first time after so long, i actully achieved everythng that i set out to do during the last weekend. I am slowly becoming more and more organised. I hope to keep improving. As for now, i can say with confidence that I have improved my lifestyle. My room is so much neater. in fact, it is really neat. I eat more regularly. I have quite sufficient sleep too. I'm not too late for my classes (less than 5 minutes late..not my fault,Lynette likes to start classes earlier than the scheduled time). I am able to control the time i spend on the net esp in regards to using social networks. in short, i'm improving =).

May I continue to be organised and not messed up. I work well both ways, but I do enjoy living in a nice and neat room and with proper meals, I have enough energy to keep me going during all these busy days.